Oftentimes, I find myself alone.

It’s been a year since my friends and I separated because, of course, school is over and we had to go fulfill our family duties and go our separate ways. Reality has never slapped me this hard. However, I was determined that from every ending sparks a new beginning. I began learning a lot of things on my own and when I am alone, I talk to myself (the good kind, okay, I’m not that crazy). In my solitude, I began asking myself about my decisions in life and what has become of it. Life, as I knew it, was different now. Thus, I am making an alone series not only to help myself sort myself out but hopefully help people like me too.

Braving the Seas

Everything seems to be fine. You do you. Everywhere is a whole new world that you get to explore, every restaurant, coffee shop, museum, and whatnot are uncharted seas that await your arrival. It is fun and daunting but you come to realize and think “Oh, I have no one here to share my experience. I am a lone captain without a crew. Nobody to share my treasures with.”

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Working It Out

From that point, you feel alone again. Every inch of you itches to be with your friends. But you pick yourself up again and try again. “Who needs friends! I can focus on my career 24/7, more time for me,  more achievements to make, more, more, and more.” And so you work.

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Chronic

Habitual, Recurring, and Same. Routine, your worst nightmare, is actually happening. You hate it but there’s almost nothing you can do about it. Almost.

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Unknown?

Slowly, you ease yourself into the thought of being independent. Independence, biggest word you’ll ever face, it’s like closing your eyes and jumping off a cliff without any thought about the bottom. The bottom may either be a field of roses, a pool of sharks and electric eels, or heaps of big marshmallows. You’ll never know if you refuse to take that leap.

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Answers? I don’t have answers yet. It is something I am yet to discover my own uncharted seas. I can’t find myself yet. I have a lot of unanswered questions floating in my mind. Some questions more difficult than any exam I’ve done. Maybe in the next post, there might be some light.

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Yep, everything’s ok.

 

29 thoughts on “Alone Series”

    1. I’m not the only one, yay! Haha but at one point I think we need to experience this and come out a better person 🙂

  1. What I’m going through right now. But I’m taling this moment to please myself more often, doing yoga, meditation, reading…. We can better ourselves during our alone time.

  2. Welcome to the world of loners, jk. Whatever happens, everything will turn out fine. A lot of people went through this phase of life and everything came out fine, so will yours too. Soon enough I will graduate too, I hope you can share more so we can learn from it 🙂

  3. Myself 2 years ago. Was alone but trust me, i’ve never been so happy in my life. Yes at times you’ll question yourself why you’re alone but then in time you’ll get the answer as to why not? 😀 don’t stress yourself much… one step at a time. You’ll get there. 😉

    1. Thank you! I try not to overthink and reading your comment makes me feel like everything will be alright in the end. If everything’s not alright then it’s not the end, right? 🙂

  4. Being alone is a perfect opportunity to find and know yourself more. We act differently in front of different people, friends, family etc. But I think what you do when you’re alone is the real you. 😀

  5. Been alone almost my entire life. You’ll probably appreciate the gift of being alone. Sometimes you just have be an island. It’s possible. Sounds depressing but will surely help you grow better!

  6. Beautiful. It’s not everyday you get to spend some time alone so just go enjoy it. Your 20s are about these countless self-discoveries that come up only when you give yourself that necessary break from everyone else. 🙂

  7. “Slowly, you ease yourself into the thought of being independent. Independence, biggest word you’ll ever face, it’s like closing your eyes and jumping off a cliff without any thought about the bottom. The bottom may either be a field of roses, a pool of sharks and electric eels, or heaps of big marshmallows. You’ll never know if you refuse to take that leap.”

    Finally. Somebody found the right words to describe what I felt when my travel companions of three years left and followed a different path. I felt like half of me has departed as well. Being alone has its complexities and tragic dwellings, but as I continue my journey, I learned more about life and how to deal things without relying so much to others. Great post! 😀 😀 😀

    1. Thank you! At difficult times and you’re friends and family are not there, you will always have yourself to rely on.

  8. I understand how you feel. Perhaps you can view this as an opportunity to be comfortable with just being yourself and to meet new people. One of the things I’ve learned in life is that people come and go. You’ll meet good friends but eventually go on separate ways. In life, we only have a select number of friends who’ll stay in touch through the years.

  9. It’s okay to allow yourself to think of these thoughts, it’s normal, especially if you’ve just been thrown into this “aloneness” suddenly. But do not be afraid of it. Being alone has many benefits than most people would ever acknowledge. It makes you independent and it helps you figure out who you are. I say enjoy it, because always, people would come to disturb the peace.

  10. “Slowly, you ease yourself into the thought of being independent.”

    For me, this is the right angle of being alone. It is the time to spent with yourself together. I find my happy state every time when I’m alone with my thoughts and with my self. Everything will be better at the right time. <3

  11. Being alone is a challenging and educating journey.. love it being that way and its never been lonely

  12. Heyy there. I can relate to this! Hoping it feels better for you soon! I, too have felt alone many times, as if there was no one to love you and spend time with you. But keep positive because there are people out there who will love and appreciate you! That, I am trying to do now!

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