I am not perfect and I am perfectly aware of that. I make mistakes and I stumble, stutter and make grammatical mistakes like any other human being. Whenever I feel insecure and sad I compensate by telling myself that I am young and the world is my oyster, I still have time to spend (or waste) in looking for myself. Looking, looking, looking for that rabbit’s hole to fall into. Whilst finding myself, I decided to watch Youtube videos and figured that all these beautiful women share what they love online because it is their passion and from small steps and low res videos they have grown into influential women with a big voice in the beauty industry. Well, you’ve got to start somewhere, right?
Blogging, where do I start? Putting myself out there for the world to judge is not an easy task for an introvert like me. It takes a whole lot of courage and here are some things I learned about blogging that I could never exchange for anything else:
Every post for me is special and I just don’t write for my readers but also for myself. I have been insecure of what I look, what I do, where I’m from, but sometimes I just have to say to hell with it and just do my own thing. I am sick of the pessimistic side of me and I challenge myself to something new every day. Even if it’s just a blog post.
I love dainty and cute things but I also have this weird fanciness for morbid and dark things. Polar opposites they may be but I think it tells a little something about me, spoiler though, I’m not gonna be a serial killer but this fascination with two completely different things was developed when I started blogging. I also fell in love with nature and when I pick my camera up I am excited to snap photos and snap till I drop! Haha.
On the other hand, designing photos, making them look pretty and sweet makes me happy and develops my optimistic side. However, I notice that I feel sad and irritated when I don’t get the design in my head. Anybody else? haha
The cliche goes, ‘write to express not to impress,’ slapped me hard in the face and I am bald right now because it is hella true. When I write, I’ve felt this weird feeling that someone out there is judging my writing but it’s really pointless to dwell on that feeling because once you’re convinced that you can’t please everyone, you’ll transfer the energy someplace else. Therefore, write to express and impress yourself.
Friends come and go, but true friends stay. Wow, what is up with the cliches haha anyway New Buddies or Friends await you when you blog. You find people who are there to support you even if it’s the craziest (good crazy) thing you’ve been thinking of all your life. Friends are not just physical but virtual as well, mingle with people who love what you love and you’ll meet friends for keeps. Wouldn’t that be nice? 🙂
That thing called ‘new life perspective,’ is out there waiting for you to pick it up and add to your holster. New life perspective does not mean that you have to change yourself and force yourself to be someone else but rather like a Pokemon. Most Pokemons evolve and in their final forms they are powerful, wise, and prettier. haha but seriously, a new life perspective means that you are introduced to your new self, yourself 2.0.
Blogging is a hobby, yes. But it is also a fruitful journey towards discovering yourself and your passion.
Worth a try.